Week 78 in the Field: Week 23 in Zurich: LAST AND FINAL WORDS," I know He'll continue to carry me, even when I'm not wearing my name tag" xx

I can't believe that it has come time to write my last email. Where has the time gone?! Really, though. 

We got transfer calls on Saturday, and our area is being closed :( Sister Smith and I are very sad about it, and now have even more to do that we thought. SISTER SMITH will be going to Burgdorf to work with Sister Oswald, her third American companion ;) 

General Conference is always the best thing on a mission. God answered MANY of my prayers, and it always amazes me how specific He is. I got answers that were so specific that they were given to me in the form of quotes. God is so good :) I felt a deep, overwhelming, and powerful love the whole time. Not only did we have Conference, but it was also Easter. What a special day. I will never forget it :) the weekend was just amazing. We were all at the church, but it was mostly just us missionaries. just my district and one other elder companionship. we listened to all the sessions except for the last one.

That talk on RM's and YSA's was a huge answer to a prayer for me. it was very specific and sister smith and I just looked at each other and started laughing because we both knew god was speaking to me. It was awesome :) I didn't hear anything from Priesthood meeting. I will also do that when I'm home.

Norma, Denise and Ashley, two families

We started that day off with a Brunch with our South American Crew :) We ate amazing food, and were all convinced we were never going to be able to stand again. They were so sad when we had to tell them the news that there will be no more Sisters here. They didn't believe us for a while. But sadly, it's the truth. There are going to be a lot of people that won't be visited as much because there are so many women in the ward. The Lord will watch over them, though. xxxx

We had exchanges again this week. I went to Luzern with Sister Page, and Sister Flickinger came here with Sister Smith. We were caught in the middle of a huge storm. The storm even got a name, "Niklas". It broke my umbrella. It was NOT a funny April Fools joke. It was snowing, and raining, and the boats were all rocking on the waters, and then we got delayed and ended up missing our bus and got stranded in the middle of nowhere for an hour, only to find out the appointment got cancelled :) It was quite the experience. 

I love Sister Page. I feel a bit friendless here sometimes, I'm sure we have all had those feelings at times, out here and at home. It was comforting to know I had her. We think too similarly. I love her :) We had a very good exchange, full of goals, and getting pumped about the work. It's nice to know that you've helped someone. I will miss these Sisters :) 

The days have just been a blur. The only thing that is in my head are the feelings I've had over the last couple of days. I wish that I could put them all into words, but my time is so short, and my words just don't justify the things in my heart. xxxxxx

I guess I just want you to know how much I have loved this time. I have had lots of time to reflect on the last 18 months, and I've asked myself often if I've done what the Lord wanted me to do: did I reach my potential? For this moment in my life, I would have to say yes. It wasn't until last week that I felt like I became the missionary I wanted to be. It wasn't until that exchange, actually, that I realized the progress I had made and how much I had grown. I have such a strong testimony of so many things. I have so much to KEEP doing, though, too :) That's the exciting part... it never stops :) 

The Savior lives and He loves us. He loves me. He is aware of me. The Atonement of Jesus Christ is more real than anything I know. I know it is through the Atonement that I'm going to be able to handle this new transfer ;) He's carried me through so much already, I know He'll continue to carry me, even when I'm not wearing my name tag. I will miss that black piece of plastic. 

Our calling as missionaries is so holy, so sacred. He called us here to teach the Gospel of Salvation. This is such an important message, and that He trusted ME to do that? Wow. I will miss the Spirit of Missionary Work. There is a special spirit that we have here on a mission. You know when you are living in Switzerland, and when you are serving a mission. Having that Spirit of Missionary work is what I will miss; knowing that all I do is for Him. I have a very specific purpose here, and I have found myself in it. It's time to start a new mission :) It's a good thing I've learned to listen to the Spirit while I've been here.. I'm going to need to listen really well :) 

I'm scared to leave my mission. I'm sad to leave my mission. But I know He has so much waiting for me. I will always be His missionary, just doing the work in a different way :) And I know life is also nice in Utah ;) 

I have come to love the members here! I love the friends I have made and have taught the Gospel to. I have come to love the missionaries- they are very special people. 

We had the chance to talk with Will, a good friend of ours. He thanked me for helping him find the Book of Mormon. He said I helped change his life. It was hard having to say good-bye. Sister Smith is also finding it hard. The poor thing is having to close her first area. She'll be great :) xxxxxxx  I have full confidence in her and in her capabilities. More importantly, I know she is in tune with the Spirit. She has become my closest friend, my sister. I will miss her so much :) My companions have all become my sisters.  I look forward to following her throughout the remainder of her mission.

I'll try my best to keep my head on my shoulders this week. It's a bit crazy. But it will be good :) 

I need my hair done, and my nails but before that on Saturday I'll need a companion for morning sport.. I'll do a quick run that morning probably. then I'll do personal study for an hour, and then we can go GET RELEASED. I won't have time for comp study. That's something I would love to keep doing. I've made study goals, and all I'll need is someone to be accountable to. 

I'll see you soon :) I apologize in advance for the mess that I will be :) It's to be expected, though, right? ;) I will be exhausted. I can promise you that:) 

Love you to the moon and back :) 

P.s. yeah... I'm really not excited to come back to America, if I'm being 100% honest. I'm really scared. I love it here, everything about it. i feel like this is my home, it has been for 18months. one month and we'll all be back and you'll see what i'm talking about.

See you... really soon

Sister Gilmour

xx

Part 2:

From Sister Chloe Gilmour, home in a few:)

This is for all you future missionaries who are wondering what on earth to bring with you out here. You've heard all the common answers, but let me tell you something....

THERE IS STILL MORE TO BRING.

I was shocked when I came out here! No one told me about the Personal Touches we write people! No one told me we had to get older and have birthdays on missions and that they were still celebrated!

So I will spill out all of the things I wish I had known to bring with, and hope that it helps someone searching for answers to this hard question: What do I bring with me on my mission?

1. Small crafty things; stickers, paper, pencils, markers, etc., but not a ton! Just a small supply (Also handy for marking scriptures, making notes, and staying organized)

2. Cheap, easy, and fast ideas for birthday gifts. Trust me, that's something I wish I had known about.

3. Bring a WHITE mesh bag for your G's. It makes Monday washing so much easier. Not having to sort through your companions stuff to try and find your clothes. It's super hard since they all look the same.

4. Think back on aaaaall the many years of YW/YM, Seminary, Youth Conferences, FHE, etc on all object lessons you saw. They will come in handy when we you need to teach a District Meeting assignment, or a Zone Training, or a family at an eating appointment. Get ready to share 1,000's of Spiritual Thoughts. It's nice to have a head start. 

5. That brings me to my next point: think about Spiritual Thoughts you can give. You may not have any idea what that is. It's like a mini lesson that you share with Members. It's a bit more relaxed than a lesson, but still teaches a Gospel Principle. The cooler and more creative they are, the more involved the family gets. 

6. Bring EASY and FAST recipes. Conversion charts are really handy, too. 

7. Sticky notes are a must. Even if you're saying, "I am not a sticky note kind of person", trust me, you will be as a missionary. If you want to be organized, you will be. 

8. Maybe not something you want to BRING with you, but something you'll want is folders. I have a few different ones: music folder, picture folder, letter folder, etc.. 

9. Sisters, nail polish. Life gets dull sometimes and it's fun to mix things up with a bit of color (conservative color, that is)

10. Pencil bags. They make transporting your desk easier when Transfers come along.

I hope these things are helpful to all of you who have decided to serve the Lord. You will be so blessed for your service and you will LOVE the missionsmile emoticon It is much different than anything you can imagine, but go out and work hard, rely on the Lord, and you will be just fine smile emoticon

This Church is true and the missionaries are the lucky ones that get to declare that to the world smile emoticon

Sister Chloe Gilmour
xx